Well, as it’s the end of the writing challenge, I think I’ll reflect on that for my final slice.
Anyone who has done the challenge probably felt the same way I do now on Day 31. I did it! And I’m proud of myself. Because it wasn’t as easy as I thought it was going to be.
When my teammate told me about the challenge, I was in before she finished explaining. I can write every day for 31 days! EASY! And I can empathize with my students, and get them writing every day in the classroom challenge, and get back to my own writing again! Looking back, I realize I didn’t know what I was in for.
Every day, I had to search myself for a story. I had to dig deep. I had to go beyond the little trivialities of my days and find something that I felt was worth my writing time. Time isn’t something I like to give away freely. There are so many things I HAVE to do, that when I have time to myself, I want to use it for something I WANT to do (who doesn’t, right?). And it wasn’t that I didn’t want to write. It’s just, once I got started, I had to decide if I was okay dumping my past, my present, my feelings, and my thoughts into words that anyone could read. Some days were easy. Some slices just poured out of my fingers like water out of the faucet, and I actually cut them down so they weren’t so long. Other days, I stared at the computer screen for 15 minute chunks of time, several times a day, and couldn’t think of anything to write. I even missed a couple of days because the days quite literally ended before I ever got around to slicing. And I would wake up the next day remembering that I didn’t write and I was disappointed!
In addition to my own slicing, I spent a lot of time reading others’ posts and commenting. So many people’s writing, so many stories; some laughs and even a few tears came from reading what others shared. And reading other slices made me feel like my slices were lame, or too long, or too short, or too similar every day. They made me look at my writing and think that I could be better, my content and my writing should be better. They made me think that people would find my writing shallow, or simple, or just plain dull.
But then I remembered I wasn’t doing this challenge for anyone else. I was doing it for me. And what started as a way to earn some credit hours and have some fun writing, turned into an accomplishment, of which I am really very proud. You will definitely find my name on the list for next year’s challenge. And I will hopefully have been writing a lot more in the meantime.